Chances. A Lookback at 2006

Well, its a little more than 5 hours before we finally bid our goodbyes to 2006 and say hello to 2007, but before that happens, I would like to point out a few things on what I have learned this year.

• We always get our chances–to interact with people, date with them, and perhaps spend some time with them to make love with *red light, guys–the last part’s not me…maybe somebody else, but not me*. January 8 of this year could have been one of the most memorable days of my life, but it turned out to be the other way. To share to you, I was invited to watch a movie–for a cause–and I agreed, because there was a cause for it. Poof. I never doubted my feelings for a person. I just question if I am still doing it right, if I still have the reasons to fight for them.
• My February had always been quite intriguing. Perhaps its the thought that its the “love month”. The february I had this year is a milestone for me. It was the first time I took coffee for, err, nothing. Also, I had a glimpse of what “louve” is all about. Aby sent me a poem, back then–Pablo Neruda if my memory still serves me well. Twenty-eight days.
• March. Who would have thought that I, Ian, would win in the Vice Presidential race? Hah. Pressure’s all over us then, but we were able to navigate through it in as fashionable as possible. *winks
• The rest of the months have been stressful, I should say. Controversy followed after controversy. Work followed by another work. Confusion arises as “No comments” rise up from one’s mouth. I have to put things on the line and cut the crap if necessary. Keep my WETlist on alert and, perhaps bring back some of the traits of the old Ian, who I believe have survived these “attacks”.
• I was able to hold on a few things, and reconnect with the most important persons in my life.
• Learned that people who really dont want you, will find ways on how to pull you down–down to the abyss.
• Finally, I was able to distinguish what I really wanted, and felt for people.

To 2006, farewell. It has been a mournful, pitiful year, but I would always remember you, because you have placed a milestone in my life.

Xmas. Anu yun?

Tignan mo nga naman o. Kakapasko lang, tapos Happy New Year kaagad ang bati ng mga tao. tsk. Palipasin nyo naman o. Bumati nalang kayo–siguro mga 6 hours bago mag-new year!

tapos heto pa. “merry xmas”. Anu yun, x-rated? sori a…pero is x=christ? pwede siguro…kaso 5 letters na nga lang, di pa maisulat. tama c ate aby…*nods*

haha. go on, ate!

i am not a hero, but i could…

ok.ok.

Its a little more over two days before we celebrate the natal day of Christ. It is truly fast approaching, and people who haven’t purchased a single gift have a little more over 24 hours to go to the malls, halls of Tiendesitas, or the creaking wrecked stalls of Divisoria to buy their gifts. Anyhow, to those of you who are reading this one, I bid you all the blessings, grace and peace of Christ. Merry Christmas.

Anyway, I was supposed to put on my blog something last Wednesday, but since the computer was busted, I have no other option but to wait.

Recenly, I have asked my good friends to furnish me a copy of the music of Josh Groban, and indeed I was hooked onto them. I should also say, that indeed I am looking forward to something (rather someone) special. haha. The songs are great, the lyrics are nicely-done, and the music, magnificent–especially two of the tracks in Josh Groban’s album. So She Dances, and Awake.

I would not conclude first that I am in love, but what I am trying to say is, there is something I feel which is indescribable. haha.

I should admit–to all friends I have– I cant promise you that I would be a hero for you, saving your butts in times of trouble, especially for the two of you who are calling me kuya, I could not save you. Some things happen not because of my own doing–if they are under my nose, I could somehow manipulate it–but its not. I ask for an apology for the both of you.


Atchie’s lovely on the picture.

The end.

t’was supposed to be ewan, but…

I got this from my old blog. I guess this is quite interesting.

ewan ko..ü

nakakatuwa naman, i mean yung parang hello, si ian? may plano na yan..matagal na (maging pari-slash-pope) ng Catholic Church..anu ba yun, parang pamalit ba ako kay vientiane? (vien, remember? POPE PAJO ang bansag pa nga nila sa iyo eh..) >ngayon, tawag ko sa kanya ay Santo Papapajo. haha.

pero u know what, my life (i strongly feel it), i wud dedicate it for others…i mean kung mag-aasawa ako, for my wife and children, kung di naman, siguro naman, kahit dun sa profession/vocation ko di ba? di man ako xur dun sa magiging path ko, at least alam ko na..hey, my life wud be for others..ü

Anyway, masyadong turbulent ang mga days ko recently—especially with relation to my emotional/lovelife? wahahaü kung sa bagay, i mean it is all my doing naman kaya ako ang dapat sisihin about it. It could have been simpler when i did not intervene..pero poof..looks like ako nga ang may fault about it. (if only i could patch things so quickly but i can’t) I wont do it anymore for the attention of the person whatsoever..its ruined. Its like a glass na nabasag, di mo na yun maibabalk sa dati..kahit na for to be friends man lang (yung nagpapansinan a..hindi yung deadmahan..) kahit yun lang..that is all i am asking for,,..

di ako nagtatago ng grudge sa tao..kung galit ako dun sa ginawa ng tao e..i can easily forget it.. di ko lang napapatawad yung mga taong nagiging traitor, backstabbers, or haremlords/user/whore (haha, sana alam nung tao na yun yung ibig-sabihin nun)

patience pa, ian..keep more patience and diligence…

limiting yourself is not knowing your limits.ü

GOD…please help me..shed light on my path…amen.

10.29.06

> right now, I am simply happy. With what has happened before, I was able to navigate deeper, and found the fountain of light that helped me go trough the troubled waters of the Atlantic. At last, I found the answer.

* the love we usually refer to, or desribe, or imagine, is the pathetic love that doesn’t exist. Its all in the dream. There is no such thing as true love, or real love–only one exists, and that is GOD’s. TRUST ME, vien. I know this much.
>let me point out to you an example. A verse in a bible (1 Corinthian ata.). Love is patient and kind…(and so on). I believed back then that it was for all kinds of love–but in reality, it is all about Iesu (Latin: Jesus).Yes. I figured out after that “life-changing event”. Thank you–to “whatever” you have shared.

**and I would like to thank the people who addressed me as kuya. truly, now I say I am indeed a kuya (when they need me, ayun, darating…may supersonic boom pa! pag wala na. sus, parang black hole).

**lastly, I know you would say, You Don’t Know Me, and ask me Quando, quando, quando? but…i am glad. Simply because. yun. because.

haha. hulaan.