Hi 017

30 11 2007

So much for the hiatus, there has been lots of changes that have happened after my 17th natal day, changes and fun things that have happened. Let me walk you through the things that have happened over these past few days. :)

19 Nov. Well, it is my birthday. Guess what, I was greeted by some of my blockmates in the morning and a great number of them still did not realize that it was my birthday until our InTACT instructors asked the class for a birthday song for me. I still understand their reasons of perhaps not being familiar of one’s birthday. Anyway I am already in the college and not in the grade school to ask for their Happy Birthday greetings.

By the way, for those of you who know little of Ateneo, there is a subject taken by either the freshmen or the transferees called InTACT, an acronym for Introduction to Ateneo Culture and Tradition. This non-academic course introduces to the students the tradition of the Ateneo, which is attaining Magis and being men and women for others.

What made me disappointed, however, is the paimportante atmosphere that ruled the day. I opted not to reveal details of whoever these people are. I guess I am still sane enough not to detail them here.

Like ten years ago.
Ten years ago, I remember having my birthday in a McDonald’s near our then house in Quezon City. There were ice creams and guests everywhere. Of course, most of the guests were boys since all of my schoolmates back then are boys (well, I stand corrected: biologically boys). We were in the second floor of that McDonald’s, and all of us were having some fun. Me, my family, my friends and neighbors dined together, enjoying the ever-famous McDonald’s fried chicken and spaghetti. I even remember having French fries and the sundae. I really loved (and still love) the chocolate-fudged sundae. There were special guests, too! They came all the way from the McDonald’s land. :) Yes! They are Birdie and Grimace. :)

20 Nov Receipt 2007

 

Ten years after (and one day!), me and Aby went to McDonald’s for us to have bite to eat. We realized after having our orders being prepped by the McDonald’s’ service crew that there was a birthday being celebrated in their so-called “function room”, and that the children were having the same order I had had ordered for my guests ten years ago! On top of that, well…read the picture. :lol:

It was really like ten years ago, only that I am a lot older and that I was with Aby now. :mrgreen:

Recent changes. Well, it seemed that I have to make lots of reading still. I have to refocus myself especially in three subjects, Quantitative Chemical Analysis, Applied Calculus for Business, and Filipino.

Senator Antonio Trillanes IV made yet another bold attempt to destabilize the government or so. Senator Manuel Villar launched yet a vivid movement of showing to the public that there is one more option for 2010 (and that’s him, of course). Senator Mar Roxas is now leading the Liberal Party (and of course will definitely run for the Presidential race at 2010. Whether there will be clear changes or not, or whether the society will dictate the final fall of President Gloria Macapagal-Arroyo, I believe that the course of the Philippines is now set not in the resolution the political issues the Arroyo government (yet) but rather the resolution of the real problems of the Filipinos: poverty and education.





Mooore Pablo Neruda poetry

23 11 2007

I Do Not Love You Except Because I Love You

I do not love you except because I love you;
I go from loving to not loving you,
From waiting to not waiting for you
My heart moves from cold to fire.

I love you only because it’s you the one I love;
I hate you deeply, and hating you
Bend to you, and the measure of my changing love for you
Is that I do not see you but love you blindly.

Maybe January light will consume
My heart with its cruel
Ray, stealing my key to true calm.

In this part of the story I am the one who
Dies, the only one, and I will die of love because I love you,
Because I love you, Love, in fire and blood.

Sonnet XLIV 

You must know that I do not love you and that I love you,
because everything alive has its two sides;
a word is one wing of the silence,
fire has its cold half.

I love you in order to begin to love you,
to start infinity again
and never to stop loving you:
that’s why I do not love you yet.

I love you, and I do not love you, as if I held
keys in my hand: to a future of joy-
a wretched, muddled fate-

My love has two lives, in order to love you:
that’s why I love you when I do not love you,
and also why I love you when I do.





Awit ng Pag-Ibig XX

23 11 2007

Maisusulat ko ang pinakamalungkot na berso ngayong gabi.

Maisusulat ko, halimbawa: “Mabituin ang gabi
at nanginginig, bughaw ang mga tala sa malayo.”

Lumiligid sa langit ang simoy-gabi at umaawit.

Maisusulat ko ang pinakamalungkot na berso ngayong gabi.
Minahal ko siya, at minahal din niya ako paminsan-minsan.

Sa mga gabing ganito, ibinilanggo ko siya sa aking mga bisig.
Ulit-ulit ko siyang hinagkan sa lilim ng walang-hanggang langit.

Minahal niya ako, paminsan-minsan ko rin siyang minahal.
Sino ang hindi iibig sa kaniyang malalaki’t mga matang tahimik?

Maisusulat ko ang pinakamalungkot na berso ngayong gabi.
Maiisip kasing hindi na siya akin. Madaramang wala na siya sa akin.

Maririnig ang gabing malawak, at mas lumalawak kung wala siya.
At pumapatak sa kaluluwa ang bersong tila hamog sa pastulan.

Maano kung hindi siya mabantayan ng aking pag-ibig.
Mabituin ang gabi at hindi siya kapiling.

Ito na ang lahat. May umaawit sa malayo. Sa malayo.
Hindi mapanatag ang kaluluwa ko sa pagkawala niya.

Upang waring ilapit siya, hinahanap siya ng aking mata.
Hinahanap siya ng aking puso, at hindi siya kapiling.

Ganito rin ang gabing nagpapusyaw sa ganito ring mga punongkahoy.
Kami, sa tagpong iyon, ang nagbago.

Hindi ko na siya mahal, natitiyak ko, ngunit minahal ko siya nang todo.
Hinahanap ng tinig ko ang simoy upang hipuin ang kaniyang pandinig.

Nasa iba. Siya’y nasa iba. Tulad noong katalik siya ng aking mga halik.
Ang kaniyang tinig, malinaw na katawan. Ang kaniyang matang walang-hanggan.

Hindi ko na siya mahal, natitiyak ko, ngunit baka mahal ko siya.
Napakaikli ng pag-ibig, napakahaba ng paglimot.

Dahil sa mga gabing ganito na ibinilanggo ko siya sa aking mga bisig
hindi mapanatag ang kaluluwa ko sa pagkawala niya.

Kahit ito na ang huling pighating ipapataw niya sa akin,
at ito ang huling mga bersong isusulat ko para sa kaniya.


Salin ni Virgilio Almario, mula sa Puedo Escribir” ni Pablo Neruda.





Onward to Seventeen

20 11 2007

Sorry for the hiatus. :) You see, I still had to adjust for the hectic second semester schedule. Anyway, so much for the academics…

Yes, yesterday was my birthday! Woot! Actually, I intentionally clicked the “no” beside the “show my birthday to friends” part, since I did some scheme for my last year’s birthday. Last year, I intentionally changed my birth date to Nov 9 to see the impact of it. I was surprised to see close friends greeting me back then on a fooled birth date.

No, no. I have always practiced that. No shout-outs that it has been Ian’s birthday, not even a notification from Friendster that Ian’s birthday was to be ten days from now and so on. On the other hand, I was really surprised when people still remembered that it was my birthday. I am not sure whether they remembered it or some thing might have made them remember (Multiply, blog, etc.). Anyway.

Seventeen I am now. Still have no plans of any significant change of course. I am still quite sane enough to drive myself all the way to finishing my degree program(s). Although my mantra has now turned to be “Per aspera ad astra”, I still have almost the same wishes for myself: good health, successful life, keeping old friends, and a wish I’d rather keep to myself.